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#1 Jan 09 2005 at 2:59 AM Rating: Excellent
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I guess I've been seeing it alot lately.

People on the forum that are sad or depressed.
People in my ls that are sad or depressed.

Sad or depressed about why they're playing the game, and why they even bother.
Usually the job becomes stressful, or boring.
Sometimes, something so obnoxious or rude happens to you in a party.
Someone send you a rather nasty tell so unexpectedly.
You see others advance while you sit there wondering why you're not advancing as fast as they are.

It could be any reason, in-game or real life.

I'm not ranting about it. I feel that its everyone right to express their thoughts and expect people to respect their feelings accordingly.

But you're here to have fun.

People in my ls say "They're bored" or something. I tell them "How can you play a game and be bored at the same time?"

Yesterday, a friend of mine decided to quit all of a sudden. He was a high level BLM, hit his high 70's and always talked about his new breakthroughs and endeavors as he continued up to his rank 10 mission. He never game me a straight answer as to why. My in-game friend was thinking about why he was playing this game, and he was bored with his jobs. He leveled two mains, his RDM and his RNG, and so I asked him to choose one. Then we made a promise. He'd get his RDM to 51, and I would wait for him until he does.

And you don't ask for this.

I was kind of going through the same thing just today. I felt so depressed while exp'ing that I just couldn't get my mind off it.

Making reference to a post I made in the main forum:

But anyway, after the incident I discussed in that topic. I was still feeling awfully depressed. Why should a game make me so depressed? Its a game! Why am I playing White Mage, when it can be so stressful at times? Heck, why am I playing this game at all.

Sometimes there is no answer to this. For me, I do my best as a White Mage. So you know what I do when I get depressed or burned out from my job or the game?

/ma "Teleport-Dem"

/em runs to Valkurm Dunes.

I remember all the fun I had in that place. It may have not been the greatest place in the world, but this is where I learned how to be a White Mage.

I remember, all the times when I died, not truly knowing the danger of hate. And there was a helpful White Mage around. Walking around in their AF, running up to you and casting raise.

/joy, /cheer, /smile

So here I am at the Dunes. Giving back to this world what it once gave and still gives to me.

I see a little Taru WAR running from an angry lizzy. A pull gone wrong, trying all he might to get to the zone, his little legs scurrying. /ma "Holy", /ma "Cure", /bow

I see a party, completly wiped out. Swords to their sides, and staves still at hand, kissing the sandy floor. Goblins walking around on their once standing bodies. /ma "Banishga II", *smack*, *smack*, /ws "Seraph Strike", /ma "Raise"

I see a newb 18 THF with no sub-job. No one is inviting him. Sitting at the Selbina entrance hours on end with his little green flag up. A cold lonely existance on this seemingly warm beach.
Rialia invites you to join party.
*smack*, Damselfly drops Damselfly Worm
*smack*, Skeleton Warrior drops Magicked Skull
*smack*, Clipper drops Crab Apron

Party>> TY ^^
<<Party np ^^ just doing my job.

Today, I spent about 3-4 hours doing this.
I've never felt prouder to be White Mage.
This is what I do to cheer myself up.
Its not my duty to do this, but I believe its my priviledge.
Its what I choose to do with my time. I chose White Mage from the beginning and I will stick to it.

I am the healer, the curer and the comforter.
I stop damage where it begins and repair it where it ends.
The weakened and sick shall rejoice with newfound health.
The mobs shall despise us as they see their work undone.
Young adventurers take haste and respectfully bow before our abilities.
You shall strike more often. You shall regenerate. You shall mock the face of death. You shall fight the greatest mobs, and take them down with ease.

When you are paralyzed with fear, we shall bring you action.
When you are blinded by it's anger, we shall bring you sight.
When you are petrified by it's glare, we shall bring you movement.
When they slow you, weaken you, we shall erase its devilish work.
We will protect you from its blows, and shelter you from its magic.

White Mage pwns.
FFXI pwns.

AF Gear...watch out.
Rialia is coming to get you. And Maat shall taste my club.

Have fun! Its 3AM for me, and I'm feeling sleepy and I just wanted to get everything off my mind. G'nite!


Edited, Sun Jan 9 03:07:27 2005 by misatochan

Edited, Sun Mar 20 03:41:32 2005 by misatochan

Edited, Tue Oct 25 10:29:57 2005 by misatochan

Edited, Tue Oct 25 10:25:51 2005 by misatochan
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#2 Jan 09 2005 at 4:11 AM Rating: Excellent
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If I could rate you up to 10.00, I would.
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#3 Jan 09 2005 at 4:44 AM Rating: Excellent
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Yeah, what she said. :P Great post, rate up! ^^
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#4 Jan 09 2005 at 5:06 AM Rating: Excellent
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I would like to give you a 10 to! really good! you gave me a BIG smile readig your post!
#5 Jan 09 2005 at 12:34 PM Rating: Excellent
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Rate up! That post really brings things into perspective, and it's what I became a WHM to do: Help people. ^^
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#6 Jan 09 2005 at 1:58 PM Rating: Excellent
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This is the warm fuzzy feeling we all get, and strive for as Whm! ^^

No doubt, rate up!
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#7 Jan 09 2005 at 9:53 PM Rating: Excellent
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Well put! Thank you for this thread. Coming off a bad PT experience in Yhoator, this is inspiring!
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#8 Jan 09 2005 at 10:33 PM Rating: Excellent
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.........spechlessly wowed?

if i could rate you any higher for puttign things into perspective and making me feel betetr about my job i would.
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#9 Jan 09 2005 at 11:31 PM Rating: Excellent
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*wipes tear from an eye*
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#10 Jan 09 2005 at 11:40 PM Rating: Excellent
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that is such a beautiful post... thank you for sharing

I sorta "quit" FFXI for nearly 5 months (after playing since Dec 2003). "Came back" to it a few weeks ago supposedly to liquidate all my stuff (and all my brother's stuff) and give everything to the people who made FFXI a pleasant experience for me. Figured I'd explore Vanadiel once more before I finally leave its face, I went to the places we all go thru in our virtual lives inside the game.

I guess similar to what you experienced, I met new players struggling with Quads in the Gustaberg region. People resting at the zone-to-ValkurnDunes area of Konchtat Highlands (after narrowly escaping the perils of the Dunes). And the endless /shouts for raises in the Dunes. As a PLD, I tried my best to help out. ^^ Although I could only afford to raise once with my full MP (Galka PLD), nevertheless the help was always appreciated. And knowing that I improved the gaming experience of someone else.... well, the feeling can't be compared. ^^

So anyways, after my excursion, I get back back to my Moghouse, switch jobs to WHM, buy the proper gear and went out to level. I'm back in the game and I'm enjoying again. ^^

Your post just made the feeling of being back a million times better. ^^ {Thank you.}
#11 Jan 09 2005 at 11:47 PM Rating: Excellent
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Rate up like crazy.

#12gannonsucka, Posted: Jan 09 2005 at 11:53 PM, Rating: Sub-Default, (Expand Post) if it takes all that work for u to feel proud and happy, u are still not having fun...if u arnt having fun doing wut u do MOST of the time, then u mite as well get a life, a concept that many ffxi addicts still need to grasp :)
#13 Jan 10 2005 at 1:50 AM Rating: Excellent
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*big hugs*

Extremely well written. Makes me feel like lvling my WHM again after 5 months of inactivity. I will come back here to read this post whenever I feel down and out. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best for G1. Keep this up and you will be the greatest WHM ever.


I am the healer, the curer and the comforter.
I stop damage where it begins and repair it where it ends.
The weakened and sick shall rejoice with newfound health.
The mobs shall dispise us as they see their work undone.
Young adventurers take haste and respectfully bow before our abilities.
You shall strike more often. You shall regenerate. You shall mock the face of death. You shall fight the greatest mobs, and take them down with ease.

When you are paralyzed with fear, we shall bring you action.
When you are blinded by it's anger, we shall bring you sight.
When you are petrified by it's glare, we shall bring you movement.
When they slow you, weaken you, we shall erase its devilish work.
We will protect you from its blows, and shelter you from its magic.

This should be the motto for all WHMs ^^;
#14 Jan 10 2005 at 7:23 AM Rating: Excellent
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That pretty much sums it up! Whenever I get bored, or get annoyed with the party that even at level 40+ insists on pulling without checking my MP, I just head to the dunes, always.. Me and my girlfreind helped so many people get the magicked skull recently I've lost count, but it's a semi-selfish thing to do, sure they're grateful they got their subjob.. but it makes me feel so **** good.. lol.

I love helping people, that's why I'm a WHM..
#15 Jan 10 2005 at 9:45 AM Rating: Excellent
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Well said. I've never been prouder to be a whm til this very moment. I'm gonna go get a tissue now. ;D
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#16 Jan 10 2005 at 11:17 AM Rating: Excellent
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Yes I've been depressed in this game. I've played FFXI for approx. 1 year and I've had a total of 6 characters, and 4o754958405 characters that were just created for server migration. I've been to almost every server except the new ones. For about 2 months I just couldn't find my place in the game or server. I didn't even know what job I wanted to use. RDM was my first, but it just didn't feel right.

When I finally settled down on cerberus, the REAL depression started. Gil. While playing whm was SO FUN for me, it got very debiliating that I had to -stop- so much on certain lvls, just to spend weeks on end to make say...7k for a spell. And then ding to another lvl, that requires another 5k+ spell. I never made it to lv32 with my first character. I had quitted the game in September and came back in november only for my friend Nemobaby. Though I'm lv34 now, and a decent way to make gil, I still just don't like playing this game, it feels like a chore. My RL job is less stressful than this game is. I get even more depressed when some of my friends in game go all down in the dumps from not getting PTs, and not feeling wanted, there is simply too much **** that I can't do nothing about, if I could, I would have done it. Things in the game itself ease this depression alittle. Like helping/raising/curing people.

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#17 Jan 10 2005 at 12:49 PM Rating: Excellent
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You know, it is so wonderful for once to see a post on this forum that is not negative. I am seriously going to retype your ideals about a white mage and probably frame it and hang it next to my gaming spot. There have been times in this game when people have hurt my feelings tremendously and left me upset or depressed for days irl. I never though about turning my negative experiences into something good for someone else. In fact I am usually on Anon 2 zones before I get to the dunes, mostly so I do not get power level requests ; ; . I think I just might hang out there tonight and make some new friends and help some newer players along the way.

Thank you.
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#18 Jan 10 2005 at 1:48 PM Rating: Excellent
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Misatochan...Beautiful post. Seriously for the passed 5 days i've logged in Valkrum Dunes and logged out in Valkrum Dunes... Sadly i was there for my own greed. I've been camping Valkrum Emperor almost none stop and taking breaks right after spawn to get myself Carbuncle Ruby. After reading this post I realised my wrong. I've decided to give up camping Valkrum Emperor and before i leave Valkrum Dunes I plan to help atleast 20 people in their path through Valkrum Dunes. This includes getting people their Subjob items. Powerleveling that thief and or warrior who has been standing in front of the Selbina zone for hours just to get 200 exp to level up. Your post has inspired me to not just think of myself.

Thank you Misatochan... Rate up
#19 Jan 10 2005 at 2:14 PM Rating: Excellent
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Excellent post :)
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#20 Jan 10 2005 at 2:50 PM Rating: Excellent
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/cry *sniff /cheer

Misa sooo Beautifully written I can see that cute lil'taru running for his/her dear life aww ; ;

We are the Protectors and for that we should be Proud!


#21 Jan 10 2005 at 9:10 PM Rating: Excellent
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Very good motivational post. Thank you. Thank you.
#22 Jan 10 2005 at 9:35 PM Rating: Excellent
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Nicely writen post, I for one needed it. Thank you. <(_ _)>

P.S. I would like to have your babies.
/panic motion
#23 Jan 10 2005 at 11:06 PM Rating: Excellent
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I read this, and all I could really think was, "This is why I became a white mage. This is what makes the game for me." This was an awesome post.
#24 Jan 11 2005 at 1:46 AM Rating: Excellent
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Thank you. I was feeling really down in the dumps about being a WHM lately; hate mail in the forum, hard party invites, then once I did get a party, a stupid monk saying in party chat: ************* it, why the **** did you invite a ******* whm? There are 2 rdms searching!" That last bit really got me depressed and I almost quit right then and there...even though it had taken me 4 hours to find the party.

I've been telling my LS that I'm going only so high as to be able to Raise II them at 56, then I'm getting the **** out of this god-forsaken job. You made me, if not change my mind, at least reconsider it. Thank you for making us feel a lot better about our jobs.

Edited, Tue Jan 11 01:47:43 2005 by Insertcliche
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#25 Jan 11 2005 at 11:08 AM Rating: Excellent
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I'm really happy for the positive response on this thread, and thankful that perhaps I might have given some people inspiration for this job.

On a side note, I would like to give credit to what inspired me.

As a young White Mage, seemingly alone and scared in the Valkurm Dunes, I looked to RydiaJademist's "White Mage 101". This guide served as the building blocks to my White Mage career, and I commend RydiaJademist's hard work on such an extensively written and well thought out thread. Some of what I wrote was loosely based on some of RydiaJademist's words, and I'm forever thankful for such an awesome guide.

Another post, that served not only as an inspiration to me as a White Mage, but myself as an FFXI player is Saboruto's "Why MY job is the best in the game" thread, which has proven to be one of the most inspiring threads for any job class in the game!

Thank you again everyone...

Now, back to bringing light to darkness...

Have fun!


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#26 Jan 11 2005 at 1:29 PM Rating: Excellent
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/em initiates a group hug with his burly melee arms.

This is why I love white mages. I still remember the "angel of Valkurm Dunes" on my server. As a low level warrior slowly learning to tank and pull, I felt a lot safer knowing that there was a 66 white mage out there watching my back. It's probably my single fondest memory from my newb days.
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#27 Jan 12 2005 at 10:40 AM Rating: Excellent
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/em grabs a tissue.

Great post!
#28 Jan 12 2005 at 12:27 PM Rating: Excellent
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Wow, i just wanted to take a moment to say thank you :)

I've been feeling the same problems myself too lately. It seems as if the luster of the game was leaving me, that' i've done a lot and seen most of what there is to see but it seemed the more I leveled eyes on the horizon i lost touch with where i was standing.

I forgot this game wasn't about what it could do for me and my character, but more so for what I can do for everyone else.

#29 Jan 12 2005 at 12:28 PM Rating: Excellent
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Awwww.. /cry..thats why I became a White Mage.

I'm gonna use that quote, k? It's really inspirational.

The end has come....
#30 Jan 12 2005 at 12:35 PM Rating: Excellent
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That make me wanna go to valkrum and help ppl.
thank you for reminding me of my roots

a great post RATE UP!
Im aware i cant type very well :-D

now SMILE else ill have to cut my hand of and not consume living flesh till it regenerates!
#31 Jan 12 2005 at 1:10 PM Rating: Good
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Flame flame flame flame flame...

Every post, no matter how good, gets someone flaming them for it. I have decided it will be me.

I think you are a poo head, because all you do is run around and help people and give whm a good name and make the game a more enjoyable place for everyone. HOW COULD YOU!?
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#32 Jan 13 2005 at 12:21 AM Rating: Excellent
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i actually keep track of inane details, it's something i'm obessive compulsive about...

I find that looking at exactly how many people i've helped gives me the strentgh to get past all these 'rdm are better healers' the 'ur a gimp cuz you can't camp an nm for 8 hours' or the 'haha you deleveled'

i wear my AF with pride, tho i could get an extra 50 mp wearing mp gear...people respect those robes, despite the funny names. (i mean pantaloons, duckbills...honestly ^^)

I also had a kind whm change my life, as i was going to quit being a whm at level 15 because it was just getting to me, that whm stress we all get. then a rdm named Tresla, we made a pt together, and we both got to 16. As i left, she gave me 8000 gil and told me to go buy a Raise scroll, and that i must promise to someday do the same for someone else. While i've given 10's of thousands of low level gear, crystals, etc to newbies, that inspiration she gave me that day i can never repay to her or to anyone. Turned out Tresla was a level 60+ whm at the time. I'm level 60, well 59 but i died after i Holy'd a Dark Stalker as he was attacking a warrior that was getting his old gauntlets from a coffer. i took the raise i got from my fiance and raise 2'd him and a pld that had fallen protecting her. i made a new friend today :)
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#33 Jan 13 2005 at 9:39 PM Rating: Default
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Edited, Fri Jan 14 01:59:06 2005 by Darkvirusvx
#34 Jan 13 2005 at 10:10 PM Rating: Excellent
563 posts
That just made my night a lot better.

Bibiki Bay last night and I go to R2 two level 70's because they have no WHM. My party says it's fine, and after doing so, the SAM escorts me back, but as I recast Invisible (Overlapping) I aggro a gobbie angler.. And die.. And delevel to 64. More downtime to my poor party, though they SAY it's fine. Next thing I know, I'm leaving in 30. I felt horrible that night.

Today, I join a party wit my WAR friend. We pull a link in Boyhada Tree (Darters), and the mob cannot be slept. The escape goes off from the RDM, but only hits the mages. The two melee and tank die. They're mad. I feel bad for not running out of range and casting Escape myself. Anyway, I go and Raise II them but have to leave (My brother had Dynamis-Jeuno suddenly, so I had to).. Without a replacement. ><

Everytime I get a new Raise spell, I'm out somewhere raising hordes of people because it makes me smile. I would R2 people BELOW 50 (No affect) just because they thought it was better. Making people's days makes mine.

For some reason, a lot of people will /poke, /wave at me in Jeuno.. Everywhere. People I don't even know. I've raised a person once, and they sent me a /tell saying that they knew heard I was a very nice WHM, but the raise confirmed it. It made my night a lot better.

You spend your time helping people, and then it cycles and before you know it everyone knows about how you're so kind.. Heh. I remember telling EVERYONE about every WHM who Tractor'd and R2'd me after being killed by Guivre. People who risked their lives for me. :P I remember a lot of the WHMs who raised me in Valkurm.. Nearly everywhere.

And just for the record, Misatochan, I'm going to post that (With credit, of course, we must credit the lovely writer of this) on the WHM forums of my Linkshell's message board.

Rate up, but it's being stubborn and won't go past 5.00! >| Heh. -Hug-

Cheers, WHMs.
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#35 Jan 13 2005 at 11:02 PM Rating: Excellent
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WOW!!! Like everyone else said i wish i could rate you 10x up ^^. All I can say is thank you for such a great messege!
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#36 Jan 13 2005 at 11:24 PM Rating: Decent
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Edited, Thu Jan 13 23:25:58 2005 by Casafrass
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#37 Jan 13 2005 at 11:43 PM Rating: Excellent
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Thank you for the wonderful post. :) I am a BLM main, level 30, with a WHM sub at level 19. I had been scared to level whm higher due to the fact that I really, really, really fear letting down a party when I am WHM. After reading this, I feel as though I really want to level whm, so that I can get to the level where I can go back to Valkurm and help out those people as you have.

Rate Up!!!! :)

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#38 Jan 14 2005 at 8:13 AM Rating: Excellent
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wow... i dont even know what to say. . . /cheer
#39 Jan 14 2005 at 7:27 PM Rating: Excellent
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Wow I havent played with my WHM in over 5 months since being deployed to Iraq. That was simply beautiful.. Things like this make people like me glad to be a White Mage. Yes its stressful to do the job at times but we can always help someone out someway somehow..
Thank you for a very wonderful post
#40 Jan 18 2005 at 9:58 AM Rating: Excellent
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wow... lol thanks for the post....

i am glad i've read this post... really brings some light in my whm career.... i've been so down about so many stuff lately that i jst feel so tired of whm... ; ;

lol i help out in valkurm a lot ^_^ i like sitting around konschtat zone and take any zoning mobs, raise anyone that needs it, throw a cure to any troubling pts... a simple thank you or a /bow, /kneel makes my day ^_^
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#41 Jan 18 2005 at 1:29 PM Rating: Excellent
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Best post ever, Rate up!!! Thanks for the inspiration!!
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#42 Jan 18 2005 at 2:01 PM Rating: Excellent
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Best post I have ever read. Great encouragement. I made a post basicly saying the same things. I was depressed about being a whm and how much it sucked.

Most people didn't read it because it was posted in the Garuda forums: http://ffxi.allakhazam.com/forum.html?forum=42&mid=1105653984226246100&num=7
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#43 Mar 04 2005 at 9:31 AM Rating: Excellent
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It's the moments when I'm raising a stranger or curing someone at their end to victory that makes me love WHM so much. ^_^ This post was wonderful, I think it's what a lot of people needed to see. Keep up the great work! You're the epitome of true White Mage-dom.
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#44 Mar 04 2005 at 3:01 PM Rating: Good
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~Wishful mind wanting a release~

Heh..I'm already at the 'quit' level. And..it's getting stronger by the day. >_>... My LS is pathetic, I'm going to break it in a few days.. I have..2-3 friends..yea they are gone after like 10:00. So for many hours I've have like nobody to talk to.

Can't just start a convo with anybody either. Everyone has thier own 'circle' of friends. I walk around pearless and with a wallot full of gil, waiting to be blown on one spell that I feel will make me feel useful.

From the beginning of January 27th, 2004 I have hated this game more than Satan himself. I know why this piece of junk makes me depressed. Cause progressing in it, is more dreadful than getting anywhere in real life. And people can now be as nasty to others as much as they want, and there is nothing you can do about it. So many people in the game need help with so many things, and they cannot get help for it. And all I could do is feel bad for them, as well as myself for I'm unable to help them myself. I continue to play cause one of my friends happens to like having me around. But dear dear nemo, my will has dried up. Besides shes 57 now, and soon I'll no longer be a thought in her mind.

And surrounded by all this 'racism'. 'Emotional Warfare' is what most people are having amongst each other in this game.

Happy to be a white mage..? I havent for the past 3 weeks. There is no escape, I've tried becoming an RDM, but when you're main healer in DUNES...it makes you long for your own whm job. BLM is ok, but 'raw power' is not my style..

People progressing faster than me..one named 'Alana' has played the game less than I have(she started this year), and was a 34whm 2 months ago..2 months later she's 59WHM.. I'm still 38 wtf.... Part of that is cause I'm spending hours fishing my brains out. I read and view posts from high level players and thier glee of fighting HNM's and whatnot. Things that look fun. I'm not having fun...

Things I'm beginning to feel certain I'll never experience. I tell myself all the time that someday I'll have that 75/37 thing next to my name. I've tried 4 times to get somewhere in this game..first three of the 4 I've been a whm.. 31, 17, 22, 29(RDM). About the only difference between all those attempts is, I now can make money and not be walking around with 100g or something.

**** no one outside my LS, even remembers me for anything I've done for them which is ok..really. I'm like an online shadow. Atleast I can say, 90% of all the PT's I've been in, all the players were able to say/think/feel "she was an awesome whm". Through my eyes, on this screen, I've seen the effort players put forth to keep things going as smoothly as possible. Through my eyes, I've read the despair of many others.

In about a month I'll probably quit for good. No ones getting my money or gear..I'm quitting with all my accomplishments belonging only to me. And..I'll break all 4 discs to ruin any temptation to come back.

Oh and yes this will be the last 'depressed' post from me.

And to you white mages out there that has gone to depths I can only dream ~ job well done. ~_^

Edited, Fri Mar 4 15:09:50 2005 by Zaleshea
#45 Mar 04 2005 at 3:01 PM Rating: Excellent
912 posts
amen. so nice to see a good post like this from time to time. and i really suggest all the WHMs out there to do some random good deed from time to time. do what u can and have fun doing it. random free teleports, a run by cure and protect/shell, guard duty at some of the low lvl zones... everything helps and u'll might even make some good friends ^^

i was in a PT last night and got a /tell from a JP asking me for Raise. even thou i don't have the map for the place i tried to see if i can help. after telling my PT about it, i started going to see if i can find the PT that needs raise and bump into the BLM right behind our PT. turns out their PT is just a little next to ur. so i go and start raising everyone (they don't have a WHM) in the PT while my own PT comes over and fight off some of the monsters around them to keep them safe. was fun and we still got some xp even when i'm raising them. everyone's happy that way ^^
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Osakachan, spacing out on the Ifrit server since Oct. 2003 ^^;

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#46 Mar 04 2005 at 4:13 PM Rating: Excellent
62 posts
At times i wanted to give it all up and lvl my pal. It was 2 weeks of **** I was stuck at lvl 24 and didn't get to 25 til 2 weeks later. Plus, all my Ls friends got to lvl 40. It sucked so much!!
I just think of being lvl 75 1 day and hope for the best. Even today I'm having doubts about whm, and lean toward pal. But this will pay off 1 day.

Edited, Fri Mar 4 16:22:09 2005 by Nastradam
Nastradam- Leader of Chocoholix
75 Paladin/Warrior
Remora server
#47 Mar 04 2005 at 5:06 PM Rating: Excellent
wow this thread makes me really sad...
thanks it cheered me up and makes me love my job even more
#48 Mar 06 2005 at 4:00 PM Rating: Excellent
26 posts
;_; Come to my server. 38 is definately not the quitting level! The 50's are pretty hard .. My bard's stuck there. BUT! I had a lot of trouble with my WHM from 25-32 in Kazham ... But I forced myself to push through it and just yesterday I hit 42. It's wonderful, trust me! You just gotta keep on pushing yourself and do good things for people because it's what you love to do, not because you get any reward out of it. Just like the original WHM who started this thread, might I suggest helping others in Valkurm or giving out a few free teleports? You come across the most thankful people and even though they might not remember you down the line ... You can walk out of it knowing that you made somebody smile for just one day. And if everyone could just learn to do that ... We'd all be better people, huh? So let's start changing Vana'diel, one player at a time! ^^

Edit: Ack! I must not have replied correctly .. Anyway, this post is for Zaleshea Scholar who posted ith her spirits down. So come everyone. ^^ Let's raise them, ne? We WHM do that best!

Edited, Sun Mar 6 16:03:33 2005 by aadiaborethiel
WoW ~ Aadia. 70 Tauren Druid. :: Lethon
[ 350 Leatherworking | 375 Skinning ]
For the Horde!
#49 Mar 08 2005 at 12:59 AM Rating: Excellent
2,225 posts
Tonight was the first time in awhile I decided to poke my head into the WHM forums...and this was the first thread that caught my eye.

I think that this is a beautiful post, and every WHM should read the mantra at the bottom. I rated everyone up...everyone deserves some love.
(Way too Proud) Leader of the Pussiecat Pirates
60 Human Priest
47 Undead Priest
#50 Mar 08 2005 at 1:33 AM Rating: Good
29 posts
Rataru Up! and thumbs up to you ^.~ way too be an awesome player!
#51 Mar 08 2005 at 7:18 AM Rating: Good
64 posts
Creat post. You wrote what I feel every time, bored, I walk around looking for people and parties looking for help.

Thanks once more.
/bow respectfully

Edited, Tue Mar 8 07:18:44 2005 by McMirror
McMirror (Hume ♂ on Fairy) - 75WHM/75BLM/75BRD/75SMN/50RDM/50SCH/50NIN/50THF/24BST
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