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#1 Jan 09 2005 at 2:59 AM Rating: Excellent
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I guess I've been seeing it alot lately.

People on the forum that are sad or depressed.
People in my ls that are sad or depressed.

Sad or depressed about why they're playing the game, and why they even bother.
Usually the job becomes stressful, or boring.
Sometimes, something so obnoxious or rude happens to you in a party.
Someone send you a rather nasty tell so unexpectedly.
You see others advance while you sit there wondering why you're not advancing as fast as they are.

It could be any reason, in-game or real life.

I'm not ranting about it. I feel that its everyone right to express their thoughts and expect people to respect their feelings accordingly.

But you're here to have fun.

People in my ls say "They're bored" or something. I tell them "How can you play a game and be bored at the same time?"

Yesterday, a friend of mine decided to quit all of a sudden. He was a high level BLM, hit his high 70's and always talked about his new breakthroughs and endeavors as he continued up to his rank 10 mission. He never game me a straight answer as to why. My in-game friend was thinking about why he was playing this game, and he was bored with his jobs. He leveled two mains, his RDM and his RNG, and so I asked him to choose one. Then we made a promise. He'd get his RDM to 51, and I would wait for him until he does.

And you don't ask for this.

I was kind of going through the same thing just today. I felt so depressed while exp'ing that I just couldn't get my mind off it.

Making reference to a post I made in the main forum:


But anyway, after the incident I discussed in that topic. I was still feeling awfully depressed. Why should a game make me so depressed? Its a game! Why am I playing White Mage, when it can be so stressful at times? Heck, why am I playing this game at all.

Sometimes there is no answer to this. For me, I do my best as a White Mage. So you know what I do when I get depressed or burned out from my job or the game?

/ma "Teleport-Dem"

/em runs to Valkurm Dunes.


I remember all the fun I had in that place. It may have not been the greatest place in the world, but this is where I learned how to be a White Mage.

I remember, all the times when I died, not truly knowing the danger of hate. And there was a helpful White Mage around. Walking around in their AF, running up to you and casting raise.

/joy, /cheer, /smile

So here I am at the Dunes. Giving back to this world what it once gave and still gives to me.

I see a little Taru WAR running from an angry lizzy. A pull gone wrong, trying all he might to get to the zone, his little legs scurrying. /ma "Holy", /ma "Cure", /bow

I see a party, completly wiped out. Swords to their sides, and staves still at hand, kissing the sandy floor. Goblins walking around on their once standing bodies. /ma "Banishga II", *smack*, *smack*, /ws "Seraph Strike", /ma "Raise"

I see a newb 18 THF with no sub-job. No one is inviting him. Sitting at the Selbina entrance hours on end with his little green flag up. A cold lonely existance on this seemingly warm beach.
Rialia invites you to join party.
*smack*, Damselfly drops Damselfly Worm
*smack*, Skeleton Warrior drops Magicked Skull
*smack*, Clipper drops Crab Apron

Party>> TY ^^
<<Party np ^^ just doing my job.

Today, I spent about 3-4 hours doing this.
I've never felt prouder to be White Mage.
This is what I do to cheer myself up.
Its not my duty to do this, but I believe its my priviledge.
Its what I choose to do with my time. I chose White Mage from the beginning and I will stick to it.

I am the healer, the curer and the comforter.
I stop damage where it begins and repair it where it ends.
The weakened and sick shall rejoice with newfound health.
The mobs shall despise us as they see their work undone.
Young adventurers take haste and respectfully bow before our abilities.
You shall strike more often. You shall regenerate. You shall mock the face of death. You shall fight the greatest mobs, and take them down with ease.

When you are paralyzed with fear, we shall bring you action.
When you are blinded by it's anger, we shall bring you sight.
When you are petrified by it's glare, we shall bring you movement.
When they slow you, weaken you, we shall erase its devilish work.
We will protect you from its blows, and shelter you from its magic.

White Mage pwns.
FFXI pwns.


AF Gear...watch out.
Rialia is coming to get you. And Maat shall taste my club.

Have fun! Its 3AM for me, and I'm feeling sleepy and I just wanted to get everything off my mind. G'nite!

*hug-hug*

Edited, Sun Jan 9 03:07:27 2005 by misatochan

Edited, Sun Mar 20 03:41:32 2005 by misatochan

Edited, Tue Oct 25 10:29:57 2005 by misatochan

Edited, Tue Oct 25 10:25:51 2005 by misatochan
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#2 Jan 09 2005 at 4:11 AM Rating: Excellent
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If I could rate you up to 10.00, I would.
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#3 Jan 09 2005 at 4:44 AM Rating: Excellent
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Yeah, what she said. :P Great post, rate up! ^^
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#4 Jan 09 2005 at 5:06 AM Rating: Excellent
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I would like to give you a 10 to! really good! you gave me a BIG smile readig your post!
Thanks
#5 Jan 09 2005 at 12:34 PM Rating: Excellent
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Rate up! That post really brings things into perspective, and it's what I became a WHM to do: Help people. ^^
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#6 Jan 09 2005 at 1:58 PM Rating: Excellent
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This is the warm fuzzy feeling we all get, and strive for as Whm! ^^

No doubt, rate up!
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#7 Jan 09 2005 at 9:53 PM Rating: Excellent
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Well put! Thank you for this thread. Coming off a bad PT experience in Yhoator, this is inspiring!
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#8 Jan 09 2005 at 10:33 PM Rating: Excellent
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.........spechlessly wowed?

if i could rate you any higher for puttign things into perspective and making me feel betetr about my job i would.
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#9 Jan 09 2005 at 11:31 PM Rating: Excellent
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#10 Jan 09 2005 at 11:40 PM Rating: Excellent
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that is such a beautiful post... thank you for sharing

I sorta "quit" FFXI for nearly 5 months (after playing since Dec 2003). "Came back" to it a few weeks ago supposedly to liquidate all my stuff (and all my brother's stuff) and give everything to the people who made FFXI a pleasant experience for me. Figured I'd explore Vanadiel once more before I finally leave its face, I went to the places we all go thru in our virtual lives inside the game.

I guess similar to what you experienced, I met new players struggling with Quads in the Gustaberg region. People resting at the zone-to-ValkurnDunes area of Konchtat Highlands (after narrowly escaping the perils of the Dunes). And the endless /shouts for raises in the Dunes. As a PLD, I tried my best to help out. ^^ Although I could only afford to raise once with my full MP (Galka PLD), nevertheless the help was always appreciated. And knowing that I improved the gaming experience of someone else.... well, the feeling can't be compared. ^^

So anyways, after my excursion, I get back back to my Moghouse, switch jobs to WHM, buy the proper gear and went out to level. I'm back in the game and I'm enjoying again. ^^

Your post just made the feeling of being back a million times better. ^^ {Thank you.}
#11 Jan 09 2005 at 11:47 PM Rating: Excellent
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Rate up like crazy.


*cheers*
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#12gannonsucka, Posted: Jan 09 2005 at 11:53 PM, Rating: Sub-Default, (Expand Post) if it takes all that work for u to feel proud and happy, u are still not having fun...if u arnt having fun doing wut u do MOST of the time, then u mite as well get a life, a concept that many ffxi addicts still need to grasp :)
#13 Jan 10 2005 at 1:50 AM Rating: Excellent
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*big hugs*

Extremely well written. Makes me feel like lvling my WHM again after 5 months of inactivity. I will come back here to read this post whenever I feel down and out. Thank you so much and I wish you all the best for G1. Keep this up and you will be the greatest WHM ever.

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I am the healer, the curer and the comforter.
I stop damage where it begins and repair it where it ends.
The weakened and sick shall rejoice with newfound health.
The mobs shall dispise us as they see their work undone.
Young adventurers take haste and respectfully bow before our abilities.
You shall strike more often. You shall regenerate. You shall mock the face of death. You shall fight the greatest mobs, and take them down with ease.

When you are paralyzed with fear, we shall bring you action.
When you are blinded by it's anger, we shall bring you sight.
When you are petrified by it's glare, we shall bring you movement.
When they slow you, weaken you, we shall erase its devilish work.
We will protect you from its blows, and shelter you from its magic.


This should be the motto for all WHMs ^^;
#14 Jan 10 2005 at 7:23 AM Rating: Excellent
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/hurray

That pretty much sums it up! Whenever I get bored, or get annoyed with the party that even at level 40+ insists on pulling without checking my MP, I just head to the dunes, always.. Me and my girlfreind helped so many people get the magicked skull recently I've lost count, but it's a semi-selfish thing to do, sure they're grateful they got their subjob.. but it makes me feel so **** good.. lol.

I love helping people, that's why I'm a WHM..
#15 Jan 10 2005 at 9:45 AM Rating: Excellent
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Well said. I've never been prouder to be a whm til this very moment. I'm gonna go get a tissue now. ;D
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#16 Jan 10 2005 at 11:17 AM Rating: Excellent
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Yes I've been depressed in this game. I've played FFXI for approx. 1 year and I've had a total of 6 characters, and 4o754958405 characters that were just created for server migration. I've been to almost every server except the new ones. For about 2 months I just couldn't find my place in the game or server. I didn't even know what job I wanted to use. RDM was my first, but it just didn't feel right.

When I finally settled down on cerberus, the REAL depression started. Gil. While playing whm was SO FUN for me, it got very debiliating that I had to -stop- so much on certain lvls, just to spend weeks on end to make say...7k for a spell. And then ding to another lvl, that requires another 5k+ spell. I never made it to lv32 with my first character. I had quitted the game in September and came back in november only for my friend Nemobaby. Though I'm lv34 now, and a decent way to make gil, I still just don't like playing this game, it feels like a chore. My RL job is less stressful than this game is. I get even more depressed when some of my friends in game go all down in the dumps from not getting PTs, and not feeling wanted, there is simply too much **** that I can't do nothing about, if I could, I would have done it. Things in the game itself ease this depression alittle. Like helping/raising/curing people.


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#17 Jan 10 2005 at 12:49 PM Rating: Excellent
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Misa,

You know, it is so wonderful for once to see a post on this forum that is not negative. I am seriously going to retype your ideals about a white mage and probably frame it and hang it next to my gaming spot. There have been times in this game when people have hurt my feelings tremendously and left me upset or depressed for days irl. I never though about turning my negative experiences into something good for someone else. In fact I am usually on Anon 2 zones before I get to the dunes, mostly so I do not get power level requests ; ; . I think I just might hang out there tonight and make some new friends and help some newer players along the way.

Thank you.
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#18 Jan 10 2005 at 1:48 PM Rating: Excellent
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Misatochan...Beautiful post. Seriously for the passed 5 days i've logged in Valkrum Dunes and logged out in Valkrum Dunes... Sadly i was there for my own greed. I've been camping Valkrum Emperor almost none stop and taking breaks right after spawn to get myself Carbuncle Ruby. After reading this post I realised my wrong. I've decided to give up camping Valkrum Emperor and before i leave Valkrum Dunes I plan to help atleast 20 people in their path through Valkrum Dunes. This includes getting people their Subjob items. Powerleveling that thief and or warrior who has been standing in front of the Selbina zone for hours just to get 200 exp to level up. Your post has inspired me to not just think of myself.

Thank you Misatochan... Rate up
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#19 Jan 10 2005 at 2:14 PM Rating: Excellent
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Excellent post :)
/cheer
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#20 Jan 10 2005 at 2:50 PM Rating: Excellent
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/cry *sniff /cheer

Misa sooo Beautifully written I can see that cute lil'taru running for his/her dear life aww ; ;

We are the Protectors and for that we should be Proud!
WHM POWER yeah!

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#21 Jan 10 2005 at 9:10 PM Rating: Excellent
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Very good motivational post. Thank you. Thank you.
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#22 Jan 10 2005 at 9:35 PM Rating: Excellent
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Nicely writen post, I for one needed it. Thank you. <(_ _)>

P.S. I would like to have your babies.
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#23 Jan 10 2005 at 11:06 PM Rating: Excellent
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I read this, and all I could really think was, "This is why I became a white mage. This is what makes the game for me." This was an awesome post.
#24 Jan 11 2005 at 1:46 AM Rating: Excellent
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/bow

Thank you. I was feeling really down in the dumps about being a WHM lately; hate mail in the forum, hard party invites, then once I did get a party, a stupid monk saying in party chat: ************* it, why the **** did you invite a ******* whm? There are 2 rdms searching!" That last bit really got me depressed and I almost quit right then and there...even though it had taken me 4 hours to find the party.

I've been telling my LS that I'm going only so high as to be able to Raise II them at 56, then I'm getting the **** out of this god-forsaken job. You made me, if not change my mind, at least reconsider it. Thank you for making us feel a lot better about our jobs.

Edited, Tue Jan 11 01:47:43 2005 by Insertcliche
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#25 Jan 11 2005 at 11:08 AM Rating: Excellent
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I'm really happy for the positive response on this thread, and thankful that perhaps I might have given some people inspiration for this job.

On a side note, I would like to give credit to what inspired me.

As a young White Mage, seemingly alone and scared in the Valkurm Dunes, I looked to RydiaJademist's "White Mage 101". This guide served as the building blocks to my White Mage career, and I commend RydiaJademist's hard work on such an extensively written and well thought out thread. Some of what I wrote was loosely based on some of RydiaJademist's words, and I'm forever thankful for such an awesome guide.

Another post, that served not only as an inspiration to me as a White Mage, but myself as an FFXI player is Saboruto's "Why MY job is the best in the game" thread, which has proven to be one of the most inspiring threads for any job class in the game!

Thank you again everyone...

Now, back to bringing light to darkness...

Have fun!

^^

*hug-hug*
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#26 Jan 11 2005 at 1:29 PM Rating: Excellent
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/em initiates a group hug with his burly melee arms.

This is why I love white mages. I still remember the "angel of Valkurm Dunes" on my server. As a low level warrior slowly learning to tank and pull, I felt a lot safer knowing that there was a 66 white mage out there watching my back. It's probably my single fondest memory from my newb days.
The good work is greatly appreciated. ^_^
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